I wonder about who I can trust.

And who I can't.

It sucks that the people who I do trust, completely, are out of the country. Thank God I have a couple of people here though that have my back sincerely.

I miss the times when I didn't have to think about this, when I didn't have to doubt friendships. I miss chillin at night with my girls, watching Sex and the City, having random conversations about everything. "Have you ever thought about how weird gravity is?" "That guy in the commercial is cute, I think it's his blue eyes. What is it about blue eyes?" These aren't verbatum, but that's what we'd talk about usually. Anything. And we'd give our honest two cents, no judging (although maybe there'd be some...."are you serious?" or "wtf did you just say?"). I guess I just really miss being myself, free, without feeling so guarded. I can say whatever I want, ask whatever questions were in my head. Be chill. Drama free. Life was so breezy back then.

Thankfully, I can still have these moments with Jasmine and Tracy, or I'd drive myself insane.

I can't wait until Charlotte, Steph, and Nadia come back. Gaaaaaaaaaaaaah! One more month.

one for sweden. one for santa cruz. :)

To the liars, ciao!